Paradigm Of A Paradox

In one of my eyes 
I can only see the past,
And in the other 
I can barely see the future.
Deep down I have always
Been torn by the actions 
I have done, and the ones 
I have yet to do.
Forever I have been holding on to this
Paradigm of a paradox.
For in the midst of things
I only look for pain so that I may laugh,
And I only live so that I may  die
A wise fool
Walking in a heavenly hell;
I will continue to go towards this future that I barely see,
So I can reach this past I wish to forget.
~ Tony Paradise’s Poet ~
Picture is Spike from Cowboy Bebop.